Tuesday, June 14, 2016

This is not an art blog........

My Life is not my own, It's God's opportunity to show Him.  So what I have learned in my short 52 years?.....
What I  have learned in life is that most of the times when we take a walk with God, it is uphill.  We are asked by God to do many things. Some are easy, but MOST are hard.

As humans want it easy. Instant. The lifestyle and message from the USA is this..."We will make it easy! Fast! Painless" Want food? It's fast or zap it in a microwave. Want a better body? Pay someone to fix it for you! Want a new car? Bigger House? More education? Get a loan! And use the credit card! Want to delay working cause you don’t really know what to do? Stay with the 'rents! Get that masters or second degree so you can make more and then pay off those loans! Want a better marriage with someone who is more exciting/pretty/makes more/ pays attention to you? Get a new spouse!

 And Unfortunately the Christian world has followed suit.....the lingo and the vibe is the same.....don't know what you want to do in life? So you discern through a 6 month hiatus while you delve into the Word, not doing anything. Don't feel led to do something?  So you  just don't do it anymore. Find something else new that excites and  just feels meaningful and relevant. Life/Work/Marriage is suddenly hard and you are lonely/bored/not feeling the love? So you do a 180 and say that you are gonna just Trust that the Lord has something better for you.

Here's the things I have learned in walking the walk. 
# 1 It's almost always uphill.
# 2 You have to walk and not just talk…and keep walking.

God does not always give us easy/fast/new/ or what we want to grow us. He plants us in a spot and wants to see how we will grow our roots. 

In the droughts....the finacial difficulties, sick children, exhuastion of parenting, in lonliness and in boredom of work.

In the floods...too much work, too many commitments, too many people needing you and the overwhelming needs of family

In the springtime....in the joyous times of fellowship with others, and successes and triumphs.

And in times of loss and disease…..when we feel lost and alone and that no one is there anymore.

I  am NOT saying that reading the bible and discernment are bad. I am not saying that we should stay with a spouse that beats the shit out of us. Or that we can’t move to new paths in your life.

What I am saying is this:
In the end you have to change the diaper. Get up and exercise. Manage your money. Pay the bills. Get a job. Work at the job. Stay in the marriage and feed the dog.
In the end you have to DO THE HARD STUFF in order to grow deeper roots.
Running away doesn’t work.
Pulling away doesn’t help.
And  thinking life will be easier if you take the easier path is foolish. A house built on sand.

Paul was JOYFUL in prison. [ that was a sucky place to live]
The Mary’s wept and STAYED at the foot of the cross. [ not the fearful, lonely place i would want to be]
The disciples walked out in pairs without the faintest idea how it was gonna work out [ not a job i would feel led to do]
Only Judas fell into despair, because he know he took the easy way out in the confusion. And his guilt overcame him.

The culture in the US looks at life and wants it ALL now. They often mock and fear older people because they stick it out and “suck it up”
But what I have learned is that in staying planted ….where I was PUT…not where I wanted to be [financiallyprofessionally and in my”fun” activities] has taught me more joy and perseverance and trust than if I had chosen easily.
I have learned of my resilience. I have learned how I react and feel in despair. I have  learned what real joy is.

I am grieved, not only by our secular focus in the world, but by our Christian walk to not face the realities that God has lovingly placed in front of us to help us grow. Right here. Right now.
Because when we as Christians don’t do this…. When we don’t dig in and tough it out and do the hard things…the uphill climbs… We are like trees walking out of a forest and wondering why the forest isn’t growing and the oxygen levels drop. 

Change the diaper. Every day. Each day. With joy and trust. And you WILL change the world with God. You will see yourself grow and the forest and God's Amazing Hand in it all. 



Friday, June 10, 2016

Calm, Calm, the storms always moves on…

To say that life is full is a massive understatement. We have more things to do than hours in a day. Between  work , family and friends  the stresses of life…our own inabilities to really see God’s hand ….i often think my first question to God will be…why? Why only 24 hours to deal with life? Why only our weak souls?

I also have noticed 2 distinct things about myself and really everyone else. In the hustle and rush, WE are storms…the more we have to do and the more pressure that builds in us, the more cloudy and dangerous we become.
We are like the earthquakes that hit last night and continue today….Fierce, harsh, continuing to rumble and shake until all the energy is out.
Released into the air.

The problem is what happens to those around us. Just like the storms and the quakes, damage is left behind. Trees and hearts down. Souls and buildings crumbled.

It is awful being the storm.
It is awful being caught in a storm not of your own making.

It always passes. Calm returns…remembering this is hardest in the middle of the storms. As the thunder roles and the earth rolls…I fear.
After I wonder why?


Some questions will have to be answered later I guess. God in His time. And I will continue to seek the eye. The Calm in the storm.